Waiting on Wednesday…
Posted by: Cindy on: May 18, 2009
I’m sick of pain. Actual physical pain that gets so bad that you wish you were able to just slice yourself open and take out whatever is causing it and stitch yourself back up. What’s worse than the pain are all of the guesses that have been thrown my way. When I didn’t have insurance it was just scar tissue, then a lypoma (which isn’t supposed to cause pain). When I got insurance, then it became a hernia, which was ruled out by a CT scan that I had last week. By the way if you have never had one, they are pretty cool. The actual process, not the drinking of the Elmer’s glue concoction that has to coat your intestines. That is just gross, and makes your poop white. It’s not the IV either, because those have just freaked me out from the get-go. The iodine they inject you with is interesting to say the least. If I had not been prewarned about what I was going to “feel” I would have questioned the whole process.
When they inject you, the top of your head gets hot, your mouth gets a strong metallic taste in it and then your fingertips tingle. You will feel like you have wet your pants. If you have ever peed in a swimming pool and remember how warm it gets down in that area, yeah, that’s how it is. Then it’s like someone is at the end of the bed with lighter under each toe. Then you have a giant metal doughnut moving back and forth over the area being scanned while telling you to breathe or not to breathe.
Now it’s just a mass in my muscle wall that another doctor wants to have biopsied right away. Wednesday is their “right away”. So now here I sit, in PAIN, waiting on Wednesday.
jibber jabber
Posted by: Cindy on: April 16, 2009
I am completely exhausted. Going back to work has been great so far. Only one student meltdown this week, and to think it’s only Wednesday! I forgot how I loved the chaos.
I have become completely addicted to Facebook. It’s so much fun. That and Twitter. The thing with twitter though, I just don’t seem to have the “oh hell I have to stop what i’m doing and tweet RIGHT NOW!” gene. I like to go back and read what I’ve written and thing, “Gosh i’m stupid!” and just roll with laughter. It’s good to laugh at yourself.
Ebay has been a nightmare lately. I sold the boys phones on ebay and the guy who paid $34 for Wesley’s said “can you ship it to me fast?” so I did. Then he said “it doesn’t work right”, and it was fine. He filed a claim with paypal, got his whopping $34 back and then I resold it on Ebay to someone who loved it and said a big THANK YOU. Oh, did I mention I resold it for $50? Ha Ha to the asshole who bought it the first time! this time I sold my LG vx 9800. The guy used it a week, probably broke it and now says it doesn’t work right and it’s my fault. Oh well. I love people who don’t play by the rules. I also love what happends to them…Karma, she is a big fat hairy bitch. Did I mention this guy lives about 45 minutes away? Might have to pay him a little visit.
I sold a cute outfit to a lady in Georgia who read the add wrong and left me negative feedback. She said “items were not as described and were covered with animal hair.” I had to laugh, because one, if you don’t read the whole entire ad and the shirt doesn’t fit, bitch, it is NOT my fault. If one or two strands of animal hair gets on the item from point “A” to point “B”, it’s not considered COVERED. The evil person in me wanted to brush Amos (big husky dog who is currently sporadically shedding) and send her an entire envelope full of it. I think that would have shut her Georgia peachy ass up.
Our eleven year anniversary is Tuesday. Man, the older we get the faster they seem to come around. We had been shopping for rings and decided to get a set that matched. How unique can a ring be if there are only so many stores in town that sell the same stuff to almost a hundred thousand people? Well let me tell you, we have spent more time looking for a unique set of rings than we did shopping for our last two cars. I didn’t find anything that was unique and had the price I wanted to pay. Well today I hit the jackpot.
At work we all took a field trip to Old Mesilla and there in one of the shops I asked the lady, Do you have any mens bands that look like this and that and that? She said ‘well lets see”. I found two that I liked, bought both and then went on my merry way. Two stores down, I had a brain fart and thought “why not look for a smaller one and there is our set?” So I went back and found one, traded it for the big one and took it to have it sized. Now we have a matching set. If I wasn’t so exhausted I would put a picture up. I’ll do that Tuesday. Right now, i’m going to watch another episode of Weeds on netflix and fall into a coma.
Spring break….
Posted by: Cindy on: April 1, 2009
For the last day of spring break we took the boys to Western Playland. It was so much fun.
and that did this….
Notice the look of “I think i’ll just throw up on you when my heart moves back down into my chest and stops blocking my throat.”?
Something tells me he won’t go on that ride again. Ha!
IF they knew I spent my financial aide on this do you think they would be mad?
Posted by: Cindy on: March 25, 2009
Got me some new eyeballs, Ya’ll!
Posted by: Cindy on: March 14, 2009
This week has been weird by far. Lets rewind back to Tuesday when I was sitting at the bowling alley working on my schoolwork. A caretaker of one of the other girls that likes to bowl with my students walked up and said “Do you mind if I ask you a question?” I told her sure and she said “What do you think happens to us after we die?” I was thrown for a loop because this was after all just a bowling alley.
For the next hour we talked about how God works and uses people and how he is nonjudgmental in these choices. We talked about how I thought religion as a general practice was a joke and how going to church every Sunday was not going to save my soul if I had no relationship with Jesus. Not just me but anyone.
It was nice, to see someone so young so fired up and full of faith. It caused me to do a lot of thinking about things that have progressed over the last few years and how I’ve been compelled lately to change them. One of the things she said to me caught me off guard and I laugh about it now, because as much as I would like to stick her photo on the wall of crazy people to avoid from here on out, I needed not hear what she had to say, but just to talk to someone that would help me realize I have fallen more into trusting myself than I have in trusting God. She said “I don’t know if you are close to the end of your time or what…..”
That made me think what if I WAS close to the end of my time? It was a little creepy to think about, but we all have to face it someday. What would I change? So I decided first and foremost I was going to work on my faith, be more patient and forgiving. I’m going to hug my children more and respect that my husband works long hours and needs his rest. I’m also going to mend a few broken relationships…..you know, just in case.
lucky
Posted by: Cindy on: February 26, 2009
The last few days have been just been a really bad adventure. The ‘ladies’ in my UOP class have proven themselves to have the maturity level of high school bullies and I do not do well when pushed. I do not do well being an adult sometimes either. I would like to take a little drive to their house ring their doorbell and when they open it up get in their face and say “push me now bitch!” But what are you going to do? Seriously. Anyway, while flying kites at the park today with my students I was feeling kind of stepped on and down. I happened to look over and saw the cardboard made into a makeshift mattress and it made me stop and think of how lucky I am. I have a husband and children that love me, we are improving steadily financially and most days I love my job. Two weeks and I will be done with this class and the stupidity that came with it. I just have to keep thinking positive.
What have you done in the last week and a half??
Posted by: Cindy on: February 21, 2009
Things I’ve done……
Accidentally allowed my son’s fish to escape his bowl while dumping the dirty water down the sink. Or in laymen’s terms, the stupid fish did the exact opposite of the other fish and instead of swimming to the BOTTOM of the bowl he went all surfer dude and and jumped a wave. We hoped he would be stuck in the U shaped part of the drain, but no such luck.
I had to call 911 when a guy tried to run us off the road while taking Wesley to school. I followed him into the parking lot of the bank taking pictures of his car and license plate so I could turn him in. The police officer was super nice and even though I couldn’t file a complaint because the guy scared the ever-lovin’ shit out of us but didn’t physically touch our vehicle with his, he said he would run the plate and give him a tongue lashing for me.
Got me a wireless router to use my laptop anywhere and the husband has to pay for it because he TOTALLY BLEW OFF VALENTINES DAY…..and I was pms’ing, so that was so NOT good on his part. instead of the half carat diamond he offered, I chose the Cricket wireless card. Nothing say’s freedom like the ability to go into the heart of the desert and still be connected to the world. Not as shiny, and holy cow not as expensive! I just don’t get women who go gaga over a sparkly rock.
Why can’t people be more like this?
Posted by: Cindy on: February 11, 2009
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